Today was a day of awakening a day where I finally found my soul a day where one became two and I became you. In a world where gloom over took my light, you have over taken my gloom. From today forward I will live for you.
Take my hand, let’s run away, let’s break away from all our pain. Your hand in mine we’ll erase the hands of time and recreate an ending where our story’s never ending. Where loneliness becomes dust in the wind like an old forgotten memory. No death from the silence of pain and regret, let’s run away, your hand in mine, let’s thrive together and abandon the rest.
I see the way you look at me. I see the way you stare. I see the way you turn around as soon as I catch your glare. You never spoke the words to me and I fear you never will, but I want you to know I love you too and that I always will.
You were always right behind me during my most challenging times in life. You would torment me with your whispers and bruise me with your lies. I was addicted to your torture and ripped apart when you left my side. For I had found my happiness again, but never more have I wanted to die.
Behind my eyes lay secrets that one has never known. Secrets of regret and secrets of pain. But the ones that scare me the most are the secrets that I can not differentiate. Sometimes I can close them in and peal back their layers of skin, but beneath their core these secrets of mine develop a thicker web of lies. My secrets like to hide away because their scared to be exposed, but oh the pain that would be endured if only I’d let them go…
They come out when it’s light and follow me into the dark. Each step they take is in unison with mine. They never leave my side even when I wish they did. They remind me of the person I was and the person I’ll never be again. My shadows have many shapes some small and some tall, but the one I fear the most isn’t a shadow at all.
It’s a weary world, you said this before as you held my hand and wiped away your tears. “I’m so mad at you” those were your last words. My neck got heavy as my head fell to the floor for I realized then you were too far gone. A few days later I got the call. You left me forever our love had died. A bullet took you away as time has taken away my life.